Sunday, September 1, 2019


On the inside, I rage and seethe and plot multitudes of revenge.
Yet I am praised at work for "being professional."
Among friends I am known for "having it together."
To those closest to me, who knows?
Sometimes I rage and sometimes I simmer and sometimes, many times, I disassociate and feel nothing at all.
When I partially shaved my head last summer, my outside finally matched my inside.

Saturday, August 24, 2019

100% that fan

What a delightful week for music videos. (Or movies, if you're Lil Nas X.)
First, our one true queen of hip hop, Missy Elliott dropped a new album with this gem, Throw It Back. This is classic ME--the innovative costumes, deliberately provocative and referential yet post-modern makeup and grills, her relaxed, confident dance and rhyme--"Watch me."

The video went live August 22, and it's already at 4million views.
And then there's Old Town Road, continuing to dominate, inspire and embed itself in earholes, now in extended video/movie version, featuring LNX, Billy Ray, Chris Rock, a horse v. car drag race, and elderly bingo line dancing. I cackled aloud.

And there's the CupcaKKe remix, Old Town Hoe, as wonderfully nasty as it gets, because of course. 

Saturday, August 17, 2019


A shrink asked me this week if I have friends I can confide in. Happily, the answer is yes.
I feel so lucky for the beautiful souls in my life.

Saturday, August 10, 2019


Feeling like a glitch these past few days.
Weeks, really.
Trying to remember glitches can be beautiful, too.

Image courtesy SideFX

Saturday, July 27, 2019


I finally got around to seeing Spiderman: into the Spider Verse.
Holy cats, I need to re-watch this on a big screen. The plot was average but loved Miles and his family and super-loved the soundtrack. Visually it was stunning and the humor reminded me of Deadpool in all the best ways. Love any movie where I'm constantly saying, "What the--?"
Fresh frash frush.

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