Monday, December 24, 2018

if I don't

If I don't publish a story in calendar year 2018, am I still a writer?
Of course yes and of course this is absurd to even ask but also of course this is the dialogue in my brain.
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Especially during the three-ay-ems, the middle-of-the-night freight train of worry that hurtles around my anxious mind.
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I've written a lot this year, new stories and refined stories, I've made videos, created gifs, taken on a professional communications gig, gotten more than a few "send us more" rejections, but no YES, no publication on my own creative merits, no whoop-de-do for busysmartypants. This is where I struggle.
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Do I stop?
Do I change things up?
Do I re-direct?
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I don't have answers.
Only questions.

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